i’ll be quiet now. i’ll fade away. communication through repetition. the same signals firing. i’ll be quiet now. i know how to be at ease. i know how to fake it. black cloth. daggers. you’re doing it wrong. where is my san francisco? i just want to be a drone. i don’t want to stand out. i don’t want to be different. i want to be everything i see. i want to be a drone. i don’t want to stand out.

don’t swim against the stream. too much thinking will lead you here. black tipped fingernails. some kind of queen. i ruined you and me. too much thinking. too much being told. but it’s over now. just close your eyes. pixels. sleep. i have a headache. i just want to be a drone. you know when the wind makes the trees bend(your voice). that black spot(my heart). your veins(web). i am fated to just be. until i’m not. until it’s all over. just close my eyes. sleep. what was that? someones dropping bones. am i so transparent? i try to be. i try to be easy. for you. for me. i try to just lie down. sunrise but where is it now? the ocean but where is it now? your feelings. motives. look at those crows! lets walk to the end of the pier. i don’t want to stand out. red spots. i get the feeling that i’m sinking in you. that one song. some guy shouting through a megaphone. friends are leaving. i’m losing friends. feelings? never heard of it. don’t get caught in my light. serpentine. head for the woods. just wander. that one time we saw that fight in an alley. everything is spilling out(guts). i can’t stop it. just drift. not standing out. my name is jealousy.  with the current. silent. no opinion. letting others speak. just nodding. letting others speak. them saying more with their bodies and actions than with their words. revealing. laughter. mountains. it’s dark in here. some poem wrought with angst. some teary eyed walk home. some heavy feeling. teenage death cult.  just sleep. with the current. i try to be easy. remember? we fucking scream. remember? we fucking laugh. remember? we fucking care. remember? i am and am not sad. i am and am not happy. discomfort. dissatisfaction. boredom. death. companion. particles into particles. i’ll be quiet now. got too deep. scared them all away. crows. what the fuck happened? it was all good just a week ago. scared them all away.

put a fucking muzzle on it. don’t stand out. i just want to be a drone. just go with the current.

drift.

on your back.

staring up.

at the sun.